Stillness in Her- Words by Alex
✧ Do I really only know what one side of myself looks like?? ✧
I am back and am so excited to kick off our next series of posts with you. I hope it brings you light and love as we are all out here just trying to navigate the same damn wilderness.
My ego is tightening itself on my inner being trying to make me feel shame and guilt all over again for losing my job. Coupled with this shame I have all of this pressure built up to get going and get things done.
I am at a time and space where I am doing some deep reflection on what my programming is and why I believe it? The programming I am talking about is the masculine energy that says,” if your not doing something then you’re lazy.” But my next question is why is this the voice I am following?
The only energy that can bring forth life and sustain life-- is the feminine energy, so why do I neglect her. Have I gotten so far from myself that I have forgotten my origins of being both feminine and masculine. Do I really only know what one side of myself looks like?
I am an incredibly emotional person who is always lead by their emotions but how can I be properly lead if I don’t even know apart of myself? Especially the part that is the generator, the part of me that protects life.
So what is the other side of me saying? She is saying, “be still and give it some time to work itself out. I promise you that your faith and hope will play out to the only path there is”.
I am exploring the stillness of my feminine energy. She takes her time, enjoys the flow and sees all things before she rushes into them.
Take time, sit in her, don’t worry about doing anything because she will show you when it is time to move.
I used to think, you couldn’t schedule time to be natural-- That putting a reminder on the calendar meant all I was doing was an outward ritual but then Jas and I had a conversation that changed my life forever.
Set four alarms for different times in your phone to a song that brings you most happiness and give yourself permission to stop whatever you're doing for an entire minute. Fill yourself up with all the mystical and still energy that is required for emptiness.
I AM CHANGE.
I FLOW WITH THE NATURAL RHYTHM OF LIFE
I AM FLEXIBLE TO CHANGE EVEN WHEN THE PLAN I THOUGHT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN TAKE A DIFFERENT COURSE.
I AM OPEN TO THIS MOMENT.
With this mantra minute, you will find yourself being able to recenter no matter the circumstances. The alarms will flow seamlessly with the chaos of life reminding you to take time to hear the notes that are not audible unless you are still.
Don’t be afraid of the stillness or for all that wants to come to you. Hold tight and rely on hope because she is the abundance that is already yours.
I love you and am excited for all of us to be enveloped by her mystery.
Until next time